Soli Deo Gloria

So I was sitting in church crying this morning. I was crying as I sang a that I meant with all my heart; a song that I can remember singing as from an empty heart years ago when I was still lost. However I realized that they weren't tears of sadness. It surprised me. I thought I would be sad because I know I'm going to miss my family and friends very much. And I will miss them, but the tears were tears of joy and peace. Joy and Peace because I can see how far I've come...and I know I've only come this far because God loved me enough to pursue me, yet while I was living a life against Him, and He convicted me in my sin. The Joy and Peace that only comes in knowing God and knowing that you're "doin' your darnedness" to live out His will.

The joy comes from the knowledge that God is directing my life. When I look at who I was even two years ago, it truly is a miracle that I am about to depart on this life-changing sojourn. Not only is it a miracle but it is a divine miracle, direct evidence of power, grace and mercy that can only be from our God. It is with great humility that I go to Peru, the fact that God is even using me at all leaves me speechless when I really stop to think about it.

The peace comes from a deep faith in my God. I trust Him that He will not only direct my paths (Proverbs 3:5-6) so that I do not worry about what's ahead, but He follows behind me as well seeking to impart his goodness and mercy on my life (Psalms 23:6). And I know these things are true not only because of the scriptures, but more-so because I have seen the scriptures lived out in my own life. He has never let me down so far. Name one other thing to me in this world that never has and never will let me down...I know I can't think of it. Solus Christus!