I am going to miss my family very much.

The beautiful thing about God is that he loves me so much he would never ask me to choose between Him and my loved ones. Yes I'm going to Peru for awhile...but I will still pray for my parents, my grandparents, my sisters...everyone in my family...everyday. And they will still pray for me. I will still think about them every day and they will still think about me. I will still love them every day and they will still love me. In the end I will still be a daughter, niece, sister, friend and my parents will still be my parents, my sisters will still be my sisters...and so on. And God willing we will all still be here at the end of a year...I'm not leaving forever :)

Plus, I lay things like my family at the altar knowing good and well that they are in God's hands. I trust God to take care of them. They don't need me physically nearby to be taken care of, they need God's love and protection. And I know that that's exactly what they'll get. Though I would like my world back home to stop when I leave, I know it doesn't :) It will still be here when I get back. I say these things not only to shed light for all ya'll on what thoughts are going through my mind...but also to reassure myself.

Its just that, given how God has ALWAYS been there for me...even when NO one else was...how can I now, when He is asking me to do this, how could I now say no and choose the things I'll miss over him. How could I choose things that He GAVE me over Him. I can't and I won't.
Whew...less than a week ya'll.